I scare fall in love? Or my love do not go?

Know where times, no one makes me want to love the feeling ..
Sometimes when the love around, I try to accept him ..
But when he was closer to me, I will avoid even  .. ~
I can not love it? or my love does not go?
Sometimes really wonder ~
Not like this feeling ~
Izzit only he can make me accept it? i know that will never impossible, but still would go with him memories of time ~
Looking back does not mean that I will stay for the love you... but this is my best moment will always remain in my heart ~